Hedonism (n.): The pursuit of pleasure—vilified under systems that fear the body, shamed by cultures that mistake aliveness for sin, but in truth, a biological imperative rooted in nature’s design.

Hedonism is only immoral under the assumption of patriarchy & capitalism.

In nature, it’s order.

In somatics, it’s regulation.

In this work, it’s your

Compass.

You know your body was never meant to feel this far away.

If you’re here you’re being called back into your body,
to reclaim your pleasure,
maybe even to dismantle the very systems that taught you to distance yourself from your body in the first place.

You’re in the right place if you’re navigating:

  • Pain during sex or internal exams

  • Vaginismus or pelvic floor tension

  • Numbness, shutdown, or disconnection during intimacy

  • Low or absent desire—especially when nothing “fixes” it

  • Erectile dysfunction or performance anxiety

  • Trouble orgasming (or never having one at all)

  • Feeling touched out or dissociated during sex

  • Avoidance of intimacy after trauma or birth

  • Shame around your genitals, arousal, or pleasure

  • Feeling like you missed the memo on how to feel sexy or sexual

  • A deep longing to feel more, but not knowing where to begin

There is nothing broken about you.
You’ve just been searching for a space that you know will feel safe enough to finally discover what your beautiful body was made for.
The good new is, you’ve just found it.

This is where you don’t have to fake your pleasure or brace through pain.

Where “low desire” isn’t something to fix—but a signal that your body is tired of being ignored.

Where you stop wondering if you’re broken, and start realizing you’ve just been disconnected.

Where wanting more—more closeness, more sensation, more turn-on—isn’t shameful.

It’s human. It’s natural.
It’s hedonism—not the kind sold to you by patriarchy or porn,
but the kind that’s rooted in your biology,
guided by your body,
and finally, finally safe to follow.

Here’s the thing– you didn’t find this page

by accident.

Something in you is reaching
through the numbness,
through the sterilized sex,
through the pelvic pain,
the lack of a sex drive,
the constant misattunement with your partner, or your body.

Maybe you’re even the space-holder, the one who gets it—but your libido is still hidden under all of the overfunctioning, overexplaining, overgiving.

 But, the truth is, your body remembers something the world taught you to forget:
🌱 That sex should feel like soil.
💨 That intimacy should feel like breathing.
✨ That pleasure isn’t extra—it’s your blueprint.

You’re not broken.
You’re just a sensitive 𓁹, cyclical 💫, magical 🔮 being in a world that taught you to shut down. Your body is nature—and it’s time we started treating it that way.
That’s where we begin.

💡 Research in somatics, trauma recovery, and Sexological Bodywork® shows that true integration doesn’t come from insight alone—
it comes from the body. From real-time, regulated connection. From being seen, touched, and mirrored in your truth.

That’s why I don’t just offer tools—I offer attunement. I’m Nicole, Certified Sexological Bodyworker® with a soft spot for moss🌿, a neurodivergent brain🌈♾️, and creator of the Body Compass Method™—because your body isn’t a machine, it’s a green thing that needs tending. 🌴🌿🍃🌱

Ready to uncover the messy, magical, and completely ungovernable rhythm of your erotic self?

My clients are the tender rebels, the deep feelers, the quietly feral ones who’ve always known they were built for something wilder.
They find me when they’re:
➡️Craving intimacy that doesn’t feel like performance
➡️Done overriding their bodies just to “get through it”
➡️Ready to reclaim the messy, magical rhythm of their own erotic truth

There’s a path here with your name on it.
No pressure. Just pleasure. Slow, sacred, and yours.

Free Ofers

Download the Free Erotic Body Reconnection Kit (Videos series & Written guide)
Start where your body already is. No pressure, practices that meet you there..
👉 Get the Free Guide

Take the Quiz: What is Your Erotic Survival Pattern?
For the ones wondering why their sex life keeps shutting down.

🔸 Take the Portal Quiz

Podcast:
The nature of pleasure

Listen to the Podcast: The Nature of Pleasure
Conversations from the edge of intimacy, body truth, and erotic ecology.
👉 Listen here!

1:1 Sexological Bodywork®

Deep Body Sanctum
A 1:1 Coaching & Bodywork,
Hands-in-the-Soil Immersion
For the ones who want to be met in every cell.
This is intimate, embodied, customized support for your erotic return.
Only a few spots per season.
👉 Schedule a Clarity Call
👉 Learn More

Self-Ritual

Reset Your Erotic Rhythm
👉 Explore the Course
A self-guided intimacy journey for rebel lovers who’ve woken up—and are done dragging their unwilling partner behind them.

Erotic Initiation: Decolonize & Re-Green
👉 Explore the Course
A 1 hour ritual for the exact moment you hear yourself say, “I just feel...disconnected.”

Bedroom Burnout
👉 Explore the Course
A reclamation for the tired partner whose eroticism has been drained dry by the relentless weight of domestic and emotional labor—ready to finally drop the load, reclaim your body, and be held, desired, and honored without carrying everything (and everyone) on your back.

The Goddess Solution
👉 Explore the Course
The Spiritual Sex Masterclass for the Sacred Skeptic.

The First Body Memory
👉 Explore the Course
An audio pilgrimage through the first body memories of women who never learned to hate their skin.

meditations on insight timer

Insight Timer: Drop Into Pleasure Like Rain Into Soil
Meditations for erotic regulation, embodied breath, and feeling like you actually belong in your body.
👉 Access the practices here

client love:

Nicole is a very kind, nonjudgmental, and unique practitioner. Unique in that - you know her heart is in it fully. She truly cares about her clients, and as a practitioner myself (albeit in a different, but connected field), the level of her expertise and the depth of her commitment is rare.

While I thought I would come to Nicole and learn about how to make myself orgasm, or like sex I didn’t want, I came to realize through the program that I was missing the point completely. The point of all of this, at least for me, was to learn to actually feel into my body, to ask for what I wanted, and *most importantly* to learn how to listen to my body. You’d be surprised, especially if you are a female, how much shame is attached to not only asking for what you want, but to listening to yourself about what you want. Asking for what you want, for what you need, gives you the keys back to yourself and is the true gateway to pleasure. It’s hard to learn those skills though in a regular relationship, with rules, expectations, and, let’s be honest, baggage.

The secret to great sex and pleasure isn’t so much technique as it is being your best advocate. This program teaches you to be that.

This journey has led me down a path I didn’t expect; and now that I see it I can’t turn back. And that isn’t an ominous change, it is a welcome one; for the first time in my life I feel more connected to myself. There were many unexpected tears, hidden revelations, and times of immense growth. To find someone nurturing to help you with such sensitive material is a gift.

Nicole was that gift for me.

--Marissa K.

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